This was supposed to be a post about thrifting, but it will have to wait until tomorrow.
All morning I've been thinking about the earthquake and tsunami that hit Japan. I feel terrible for the victims. I woke up at 2 am and couldn't fall back to sleep, so I read some news on my cell phone and found out about Japan. It took me 2 more hours to go to sleep, and when I finally did I had the most horrifying nightmare about the world ending. There was water, there was fire, and the ground opened up and swallowed everyone whole. I remember knowing in the dream that I had died and knowing it wouldn't hurt for long, but I still remained present in the dream and watched the world... basically self-destruct.
The point is, I can't even begin to imagine what the people in Japan are going through; it must feel like the end of the world for them. I woke up from that dream crying, which woke up my husband, and all I could think was how can something like this happen in real life to real people?
For Lent I have given up negative thought patterns and skewed perspectives. Meaning that when I start to feel sorry for myself or complain about things that are really not a big deal, I shut the thought down immediately and focus on something that I can be grateful for. It's working really well so far, but it's hard policing my thoughts. It's making my extremely conscious of how I think and how I relate to the world around me. If nothing else, this disaster has really put things in perspective for me: I am alive today, I didn't suffer a natural disaster that wiped out the world I know, all of my friends and family members are safe, my house is still standing, my yard is not flooded, my life has not been decimated and brutalized.
If you do nothing else today, think about the people of Japan and then think about your life. Think of every complaint you had today, every moment you spent feeling bad about yourself or being angry at a circumstance in your life that doesn't seem fair. Maybe they're really big problems like death or disease or a disaster. Maybe they're not. Either way, remind yourself what you're grateful for. In the wake of something like this, it's quite easy to pin point all of the blessings in your own life.
Peace and love.